My story began in April 2020. Like most, I was lost. The world was in a pandemic, life as we knew it, was turned upside down. Emotionally, physically, socially I was a mess, but more importantly mentally. It was during this time; I was faced with the reality I suffered from anxiety and depression. “But not me, I’m in the field, how can I be depressed?”, is what I thought. It wasn’t until I was forced to sit still, that I learned to deal with myself.
I began to really sit with me and peel back layers and layers of hurt, trauma, heartaches and headaches that I had dealt with and get to the real! I was lost, I was empty because I didn’t love me! So, something had to shake. I was introduced to a spiritual advisor and she unlocked the first level of my healing. She advised in order to move ahead, there were a lot of tough decisions that had to be made, and boy was she right! I had to unveil some of my darkest secrets, let skeletons fall out of my closet, and get real with my not so perfect life.
I began to mediate, I took charge of my health and wellness, and I started to feel lighter. Fitness became my outlet, as I challenged my body, I was also able to challenge my mind. I adopted better eating habits, I was intentional with I put in my body. I was transforming. I challenged myself to be more vulnerable, more soft, very different than what my exterior betrayed.! I started reiki healing learning more about my chakras and their functions, breaking those generational curses. Being in behavioral health, people think we have it all figured out, but we are people also, and we do not!
Ultimately, what was designed to break me, I was able to use it to birth a bigger purpose. I am forever grateful for my awakening experience; it was here I learned how to get out my own way and aim for greater! My favorite mantra of all times is, “She believed she could, so she did!” I live by this quote because with a positive mindset, anything is possible!
Chanvekeyah Johnson
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